I just cannot...

For me feeling is not a toy,you can play when you need it and you throw it away when you get bored.I not saying that i won't play feeling but i just don't know how to play. If this can be teach?can somebody teach me?I don't want make myself fall too deep inside every relationship because who's care more about the relationship are the person who hurt more.You told me that you don't want to have relationship now but why won't you say:I still not ready to get into relationship,can you give me sometime to use to it?,why this is not your answer?If in between of the relationship nothing happen before,i will let you go if you want...but we have already being through a lot of things,i just cannot pretend nothing happen before but you...you tell me to let it be.How could i just let it be!I'm not that kind of person who play feeling.How can i just let it be?things already happen cannot being erase even time pass by.Things won't start without reason,whether it is a good reason or a bad reason...